MY SITE WAS HACKED AND THEY WON’T LET ME POST PICTURES. ANYWAY, THE TEXT WAS THE NEW THING HERE BEFORE THEY HACKED THE DESIGN. I CAN STILL POST TEXT. HOPEFULLY THE ROAMING HAPPINESS ENGINEER(S) CAN SPOT MY SITE AND FIX ITS LOST CAPABILITIES.
SOME REACTED TO THE POST BELOW, NOT BELIEVING HIS “PAIN” RATIONALE. THEY SAID THE CAUSE OF HIS COLDNESS TOWARDS ME IS THAT YOUNG WOMAN WHO CONFESSED HER LOVE TO HIM AND WHO LIVES NEARBY. WELL, FOLKS, SINCE WE’RE SEPARATED NOW, EVEN AS BEST FRIENDS, TO EACH HIS OWN (LIFE).
FROM WHAT I KNOW OF THIS YOUNG WOMAN, I’LL TELL: SHE INSISTS ON GOING WITH HIM TO THEIR COMMUNITY’S (GOOD-CAUSE) HALLOWEEN PARTY E-V-E-R-Y – – Y-E-A-R FOR THE REST OF THEIR MORTAL LIVES (WITH FREE-FLOWING ALCOHOL THERE, HER GO-TO TECHNIQUE TO “GET THE GUY” {HIM}), EVEN WHEN HIS HUSBAND GOES EVERY YEAR TOO. SHE’S THINKING ONE DAY IT WILL BE JUST THE TWO OF THEM TO GO (THAT WILL BE EXCITING TO HER) BECAUSE HIS HUSBAND WON’T FEEL WELL. THAT DAY MIGHT COME TOO – SHE’S GOING BY DETERMINATION TO WIN HIS AFFECTIONS. THAT’S ALL I KNOW BASED ON WHAT SHE REVEALED OF HERSELF. | I MEAN, THIS YOUNG WOMAN IS “WORKIN’ IT” SO SHE CAN SOMEDAY WIN HIS HEART/LOVE. ….LET HER.
ME? DEFINITELY, HISTORY WON’T REPEAT ITSELF – I JUST FEEL IT. DON’T YOU JUST FEEL IT TOO? (ALL MY FRIENDS FEEL IT AND ARE CHEERING ME ON!) (I WILL MISS HIM SO MUCH; LIFE GOES ON, I TELL MYSELF…WE’LL BOTH RECOVER FROM THIS DECISION-BASED LOSS) | TO THOSE WHO ARE FOND OF SPECULATING ON WHAT THE FUTURE WILL BRING: I’M NOT FOND OF SUCH GUESSWORK BUT… I’LL INDULGE YOUR DESIRES FOR SUCH: WE’LL SEE *IF* (THERE MIGHT BE NO ONE SUITED OR COMPATIBLE WITH ME!)…IF THERE’S ONE WHO’S A SEA-CHANGE – – NOT TOO DRAMATIC (A LITTLE DRAMA IS INEVITABLE AND NORMAL, IT’S NOT ALWAYS FLOWERS AND RAINBOWS FOR HUMAN BEINGS – BUT NOT TOO MUCH THAT IT HURTS BOTH PARTIES), NOT ALWAYS FEELING LIKE EVERYTHING IS A SOURCE OF PAIN (SOME PEOPLE ARE THIS WAY, LIKE DAZ, AND I WILL AVOID HURTING SOMEONE EXACTLY LIKE HIM THROUGH INCOMPATIBILITY, I THINK; I WILL *AVOID* HURTING SOMEONE “BY BEING JUST ME”! (LIKE TALKING TO WHOEVER TALKS TO ME, FEMALE OR MALE)
BUT AT THE SAME TIME, NOT WASTING PRECIOUS TIME – SOMETHING “NEW” THIS TIME AROUND [SOME SAID “MEET THE NEW DAZ”… LIKE WHOA!! – CHARACTER AND PERSONALITY 180° TURNAROUNDS ARE FACTUALLY RARE! (BUT HOW I WISH WE BOTH WOULD CHANGE BASED ON TRUTH IN OUR WORLD – SO THAT THERE WOULD BE NO INCOMPATIBILITY TO MAKE US FIGHT EACH OTHER. IT’S A FANTASY THOUGH.) I’M A HOPEFUL GAL – I TRY TO LIVE IN DREAMS, THOUGH THEY MAY JUST BE FANTASY{AS ONE SONG SAYS}. (THE IMPORTANT THING IS I DON’T BLOG ABOUT MY FANTASIES!!) (BUT WATCH ME VIOLATE MY OWN RULE AND OPEN MY FIRST BLOG ON PURE FANTASIES!! LOLOLOL!!!) | SERIOUSLY NOW… I LIKE BEING SURPRISED BY LOVE, SO THE MORE UNKNOWN MY FUTURE IS, THE MORE EXCITING. [YOU CAN PLACE YOUR BETS BASED ON THE KIND OF GUY I USUALLY GET WITH OR LIKE – BE BUSY SPECULATING LMAO …SO THAT MANY OF YOU WON’T BOTHER ME BY SAYING *LABELLING PICS OF DAZ* IS THE WRONG WAY TO GET OVER HIM! LOL – IT’S ME DOING THE RECOVERING, OKAY….I’LL DO IT MY WAY!]
THIS NEXT FAVE TOPIC OF ALMOST ALL LOVE STORY WATCHERS: “FINDING SOMEONE NEW” – *ISN’T* A SURE THING, AND IF IT ‘EVER’ COMES, THEN NOT SOON. HEALING COMES FIRST. IT CONTINUES (MY HEALING FROM THE PAIN, JUST LIKE HIM – WHO’S HEALING FROM “IT” – OUR CLASH, OUR INCOMPATIBILITY, WHICH WE NEVER INTENDED – TOO), BUT MY OWN HEALING JOURNEY WILL BE WITHOUT HIM ANYMORE/THIS TIME. HIS CHOICE, NOT MINE. THIS GOES AGAINST WHAT MY HEART SECRETLY AND ULTIMATELY WANTED SINCE THE FIRST NIGHT I MET AND SAW HIM! (…BUT NEVERMIND! LET US JUST BOTH HEAL!)
I WAS CAUGHT OFF GUARD BY HIS FINAL REJECTION OF ME, BUT HE’S MOST PROBABLY RIGHT – THAT HE AND I WERE NOT MEANT TO LOVE AND MARRY ON EARTH / IN THIS WORLD (PERHAPS IN HEAVEN! HE AND I WILL HAVE SEX THERE, MINUS THE EARTHLY HASSLE AND TROUBLES / PAIN!) I’M A DEIST, NOT A ROMAN CATHOLIC. NO, I WON’T GO TO HELL FOR “HERESY” OR “BLASPHEMY”! LOL (APOSTASY??? SEVERAL RECENT POPES HAVE DONE THAT! HAHAHA.)
THE LAST UPDATE EVER (I THINK, CONSIDERING WHAT HAPPENED TWO DAYS AGO, AS OF THIS WRITING)
ALTHOUGH IT’S TRUE THAT SOMEONE LOVED ME WITH ALL HIS HEART WHEN WE WERE YOUNGER, AS IN THE CASE WITH THE BEST FRIEND OF MY YOUNGER DAYS, I SHOULD ACCEPT THE FACT THAT PEOPLE DO CHANGE. [WHY DO I ASSUME THAT PEOPLE ARE THE SAME YEARS LATER JUST BECAUSE I AM?]
I SAW MYSELF, BEFORE GOING TO SLEEP LAST NIGHT, AS “SOMEONE WHO CHERISHES THE PAST VERY MUCH”. IT’S NOT NECESSARILY BAD TO BE HAPPY ABOUT CHEERFUL TIMES IN MY CHILDHOOD AND RELATIVELY YOUNGER YEARS, BUT IT’S VERY UNREALISTIC TO THINK THINGS ARE THESAME.
WITH THAT SITUATION WITH MY BEST FRIEND, I TOOK THE POSITIVE VIEW (AND ROAD) – IN THAT WE WOULD BE TRYING TOGETHER, AS A TEAM, TO FIX THE BROKEN PIECES OF OUR. LIVES AND STILL BE HAPPY.
THAT’S A VERY CHEERFUL THOUGHT. IT’S UNREALISTIC TOO, BASED ON WHAT HE THINKS OF US RIGHT NOW. LOVE AND FRIENDSHIP ARE GREAT IF THE FEELING IS MUTUAL. THE MOMENT THAT YOU REALISE IT’S NOT, THAT IT’S ACTUALLY THE END OF THE ROAD FOR SOME PEOPLE, THE FARTHEST EVER THEY CAN GO IN LOVING YOU OR BEING FRIENDLY WITH YOU, THEN YOU HAVE TO ACCEPT THAT.
TO ME, CHERISHING SOMEONE IS FINE. BUT WE MUST ALSO TAKE NOTE WHEN OTHERS NO LONGER FEEL THAT WAY ABOUT US, WHETHER BECAUSE THEY HAD SOME WOUND THAT WOULDN’T HEAL, WHICH THEY ATTRIBUTE TO US, OR THEY SIMPLY DON’T CARE AT ALL FOR NO REASON. (AND BY THE WAY, I STILL HAVE THOSE NIGHTMARES BUT I CHOSE TO WORK WITH MY BEST FRIEND ON PERSONAL ISSUES, EVEN ALL OUR LIVES THROUGH, DESPITE THAT. I BELIEVED WE COULD BOTH BE BETTER, AND SOMEDAY HEAL. HE DIDN’T SEEM INTERESTED IN ALL THAT, TWO NIGHTS AGO.)
THAT’S MY UPDATE. I MEAN, THIS WHOLE SITE / PLACE FOR THOUGHTS WAS BASED ON THE TWO OF US BEING BEST FRIENDS FOREVER (UPDATE ABOUT THIS WEBSITE/ ITS FUTURE: YES, NOW THAT IT’S HACKED AND THE OLD DESIGN TAKEN DOWN, I CAN RE-PURPOSE IT FOR OTHER TYPES OF WRITINGS. HOWEVER, I’M STILL TRYING TO RESTORE THE OLD DESIGN/OLD WEBSITE. IF NOT SUCCESSFUL, YOU WILL ALSO KNOW.). SINCE HE NO LONGER FEELS THAT WAY (THAT WE’RE BFF’S), I WILL HAVE TO ACCEPT IT.
I’M NOT COMPETITIVE, BY NATURE. JUST BECAUSE SO MANY WOMEN WANT HIM DOES NOT PUSH ME TO FIGHT FOR STILL HAVING HIS LOVE (BECAUSE THAT WAS WHAT OUR FRIENDSHIP WAS ABOUT – HE LOVED ME DEEPLY – I TRULY HAD HIS DEEP LOVE IN THE PAST – THE ONE THAT SAID HE’LL FOLLOW ME DOWN TO THE GROUND). I WON’T FIGHT TO STILL HAVE HIS GREAT AND PRECIOUS LOVE JUST TO BE ABLE TO SAY, “I HAVE HIM AND YOU LADIES DON’T”. I’M NOT LIKE THAT AT ALL. I COULDN’T CARE LESS ABOUT COMPETITION WITH WOMEN FOR A MAN (ALTHOUGH AS A CHILD I WAS VERY SPORTY AND COMPETITIVE THAT WAY). THAT’S BECAUSE TO ME, LOVE IS NOT TO BE FOUND BY COMPETITION, BUT BY SURPRISE CIRCUMSTANCES AND SERENDIPITY. I HAVE TO SAY “I’M JUST THAT WAY” BECAUSE I KNOW FEMINISTS ARE ACTION LADIES AND THEY GO FOR AND COMPETE FOR THE MAN THEY REALLY WANT. OF COURSE, ALL I CAN SAY IS GOOD LUCK TO THEM. I LIKE WOMEN A LOT, CONTRARY TO THE POPULAR PERCEPTION. I KNOW LOTS OF WOMEN RESENT ME/HATE ME FOR HAVING THE AFFECTION OF A HANDFUL OF THE HANDSOME AND GREAT GUYS OF THE WORLD (NOT ALL OF COURSE), BUT I IN TURN JUST LIKE AND LOVE EVEN THOSE WOMEN (UNLESS THEY ATTACK OR IRK ME WHICH MEANS A SHOWDOWN, AND I WON’T TAKE A STEP BACK ON ENEMIES), EVEN THE MOST FEMINIST ONES ARE OTHERWISE NICE WOMEN (EXCEPT FOR MY SPECIFIC ENEMIES, OF COURSE). WE FIGHT PHILOSOPHICALLY (I AM AGAINST ABORTION; TO ME IT’S THE TAKING OF AN INNOCENT LIFE, A YOUNG BEING WITH NO POWER OR SAY ON THE MATTER OF HIS/HER BEGINNING LIFE!), BUT WOMEN ARE WOMEN. WE UNDERSTAND ONE ANOTHER, WE KNOW WHAT’S ROMANTIC TO US AND WHAT ISN’T (AND THAT’S A HUGE SECRET – WE WOMEN WON’T TELL – BECAUSE IF WE DID, THINGS WOULD NO LONGER BE ROMANTIC NOW, WOULD THEY AND THAT’S THAT) ETC. ON THE OTHER HAND I’M AWARE THAT THERE’S ANOTHER WAY DIFFERENT FROM MINE (MINE IS THE OLD-FASHIONED WAY/MY BELIEF IS: IT FEELS NICER WHEN THE MAN CHASES THE WOMAN) – SO WOMEN/FEMINIST WOMEN DOING ALL THAT CHASING OF A MAN – I DON’T SUBSCRIBE TO IT. WELL, I HAVE FEMINIST ENEMIES AND FEMINIST FRIENDS, JUST LIKE LUCIFERIAN ENEMIES AND LUCIFERIAN FRIENDS. WE ENJOY OTHERS REGARDLESS OF RELIGION, RACE, BELIEF, SEXUAL PREFERENCES, ETC. WE JUST LIKE THEM AND THEY LIKE US! SO….IN OTHER WORDS, IT’S ALL GOOD.
PEOPLE / WOMEN CAN HAVE HIM, MY FORMER MAN, IF HE ALSO WANTS THEM. RIGHT NOW, HE WANTS ME TO LET GO, I THINK; SEEING THIS FROM HIS COLD RESPONSE TO MY REQUESTS. (YEAH IT’S HARD TO GET USED TO THIS SHOCKING THING.)
JUST SAYING: I CAN LIVE ALONE EMOTIONALLY, BUT NOT PHYSICALLY. WOMEN WHO LIVE ALONE PHYSICALLY ARE IN DANGER, SO I’M GLAD I STILL HAVE MY SON WITH ME, TO PROTECT ME, ALTHOUGH HE’S A HOSTILE ONE (HAVING SEEN HIS PERPETUALLY ANGRY FATHER DISTURB PEACE IN OUR HOME), WHO MIGHT LEAVE ME AT ANYTIME. WELL, THAT’S LIFE. I’LL DEAL WITH IT IN CASE BAD THINGS HAPPEN TO THAT PRESENT ARRANGEMENT.
LASTLY, ALL I CAN SAY ABOUT THIS NEW DEVELOPMENT OF HIM (HIS NAME IS DAZ) THROWING AWAY OUR PAST FOREVER (EVEN OUR FRIENDSHIP) IS: I’M THANKFUL I GOT TO KNOW THE TRUTH ABOUT US NOW – THANK GOD I REACHED OUT TO HIM TO ASSESS HIS FEELINGS; IT TURNS OUT THAT HIS OUTLOOK IS BLEAKER THAN MINE! THERE’S NO NEW ADVENTURE OR MYSTERY FOR OUR FUTURE ANYMORE, NOT EVEN AS BEST FRIENDS. HE CLOSED THE DOOR ON ALL THAT, TWO DAYS AGO. (I WILL ALWAYS REMEMBER OUR PAST BECAUSE I’M NOT LIKE HIM WHO LEAVES YESTERDAY TOTALLY BEHIND. I’M NOT LIKE THAT! I TAKE WHAT’S GOOD FROM YESTERDAY AND JUMP FOR JOY IN THE PRESENT MOMENT BECAUSE OF THE PAST. WE’RE VERY DISSIMILAR/DIFFERENT!!! OH MY GAWD…WE’RE INCOMPATIBLE EVEN IN THAT. OLD AGE MADE ME SEE THIS, OUR UTTER DISSIMILARITY. (ABOUT THE ONLY THING WE HAD IN COMMON WAS OUR GREAT LOVE FOR EACH OTHER BUT THAT’S GONE NOW). (ACCORDING TO HIM) | HE LET ME SEE HIS HEART. IT STILL LOVES ME BUT CHOOSES TO REJECT ME – HE SAID FOREVER! – HE CHOOSES TO REJECT ME FOREVER, BECAUSE OF “ALL THE PAIN”. ALTHOUGH TO ME, LOTS OF IT IS IMAGINED ON HIS PART BECAUSE I WAS NEVER WHAT HE BOTH SUSPECTED AND ACCUSED ME OF BEING; ON THE OTHER HAND I ALSO KNOW ALL HIS PAIN IS REAL TO HIM NO MATTER WHAT I DID, RIGHT OR WRONG – IT’S ALL PAINFUL TO HIM. THERE’S NO FORGIVENESS WAITING FOR ME AND THAT’S THE END OF THE ROAD FOR HIM. (ANOTHER SIGN OF INCOMPATIBILITY BETWEEN US) (BECAUSE I ALSO DID MANY THINGS RIGHT {!!}, BUT TO HIM – ALL HE REMEMBERS IS THE PAIN). THAT’S LIFE.
(I REMEMBER A CHILDHOOD FRIEND WHO IN 2003 MADE A PHONE CALL TO INFORM ME SHE WAS THROWING AWAY OUR FRIENDSHIP FOREVER – AND I DID NOTHING WRONG – I JUST HAD A NEW BOYFRIEND CALLED WOLF AND SHE HEARD ABOUT IT! THAT’S NOT A CRIME! SHE ABRUPTLY HUNG UP TOO. PEOPLE CHANGE.) SO DID HE. (I DIDN’T. I’M TRAPPED IN YOUNG-LOVE MODE.) (BUT HE WON’T KNOW THESE THINGS ANYMORE BECAUSE WE’LL NEVER BE IN TOUCH AGAIN, AT LEAST NOT DIRECTLY ANYMORE.)
WELL, I MIGHT BE THE ONLY ONE MY FORMER BEST FRIEND CAN’T FORGIVE IN SUCH A DRAMATIC WAY, WITH CONSTANT TEARS. (I NAIVELY THOUGHT HIS TEARS MEANT HE NEEDED ME, MY DEVOTED LOVE AND CARE; I THOUGHT THOSE TEARS MEANT HE NEEDED TO MAKE ME HIS WIFE ASAP (LIFE IS SHORT AND ALL THAT, I KNOW, BUT….) I WAS FINALLY IN FOR A RUDE AWAKENING WHEN HE LET ME KNOW THAT HIS TEARS MEANT HE WAS LEAVING ALL OF OUR PAST BEHIND AND HE WAS SAYING GOODBYE (YES, DESPITE THE LOVE HE FEELS, WHICH TO HIM CAN BE EASILY FORGOTTEN, IF HE PUT HIS MIND TO IT). (HE WON’T EVEN ALLOW ME TO BE HIS BEST FRIEND OR FRIEND ANYMORE.) | I THANK YOU ANYWAY, MY FORMER BEST FRIEND, FOR ALL THE LOVE. (YEAH, I’M SAD.)
IF I DIDN’T REACH OUT TO HIM A FEW DAYS AGO, I WOULDN’T EVEN KNOW! IF YOU DON’T ASK THE QUESTION, THERE WILL BE NO ANSWER. THAT’S HOW UNCOMMUNICATIVE HE HAS BECOME, OR PERHAPS I WASN’T PAYING ATTENTION TO ALL THAT HOSTILITY HE SHOT MY WAY SINCE OUR TURBULENT “REUNION” IN 2018. I WAS LIKE, INSIDE MY HEART, “BUT WE’VE LOVED EACH OTHER SINCE THOSE YOUNGER DAYS!!” | AGAIN, PEOPLE CHANGE, ROSE! | THE ONLY SILVER LINING TO ALL THIS IS – NOW I KNOW.
DO I JOIN THE FORGOTTEN RANKS OF HIS YOUTH’S GIRLFRIEND, NATALIE, AND HIS EX WIFE COLBY (WHO WAS ALSO HIS FORMER BEST FRIEND) ?? DEFINITELY YES, ALTHOUGH WITH A FEW QUALIFIERS: DURING THE WHOLE OF 2018 AND HALF OF 2019, IT WAS AS IF HE COULDN’T MAKE UP HIS MIND, WHICH WAS WHY I STAYED ON {!!!!} {ADD MUTLEY’S CUSSING FROM THE WACKY RACES}, HOPING WE COULD FIX WHAT WAS WRONG, WHATEVER IT WAS (I DIDN’T KNOW!). HE WAS, IN 2018 AND 2019, PERIODICALLY REACHING OUT TO ME TOO, AND CERTAINLY SHOWING ME LOVE THE WAY HE ALWAYS DID (HE HAD THAT LOOK IN HIS EYE THAT TOLD ME HE LOVED ME SO MUCH). IN TRUTH, THAT PERIOD WAS SOOO CONFUSING TO ME!
I’M DEFINITELY NOT HAPPY ABOUT THIS LATEST DEVELOPMENT, BUT PERHAPS WE CAN NOW BOTH MOVE ON, PICK UP THE BROKEN PIECES OF OUR HEARTS AND MELD ALL THE BROKEN PARTS – – SEPARATELY, AS PEOPLE APART, NOT AS A TEAM, AND DEFINITELY NOT AS FRIENDS. (ALL AS HE WISHES.)
FRIENDS CAN BE RIGHT: IT’S NOT THAT BAD – I’LL TAKE THAT ADVICE FROM THEM: I HAVE THIS GOOD FRIEND (A GOOD FRIEND, NOT AN ENEMY), TFK, WHO HAD ALWAYS BEEN SMIRKING WHENEVER I BROKE UP WITH DAZ. NOW HE MIGHT SMIRK AGAIN. I USED TO BE VERY ANNOYED WITH HIM FOR THAT, BUT NOW I THINK HE’S RIGHT. TO HIM, FAILED LOVES ARE JUST A PART OF LIFE, AND DAWN COMES AFTER THE NIGHT; AND I’LL BE OKAY SOON; BUT TO ME THEY’RE A TRAGEDY WITH NO EQUAL AND I MUST CARRY A TORCH FOR THAT ONE GREAT LOVE FOREVER (WRONG, BECAUSE THE OTHER PERSON CAN POSSIBLY THROW YOU OUT FOR GOOD AND REJECT BEING FRIENDLY EXES! – WHO PREFERS ENMITY, AND TORCH-BEARING WILL MEAN NOTHING IN THE LONG RUN.).
UPDATE THROUGH ADDED INFO (on the above): ALTHOUGH I’m very OPEN to WHATEVER DESTINY BRINGS, I’m NEVER GOING TO SAY that I definitely will be paired up with some guy (some type of man) on Earth. We don’t know any of that for sure. As long as I can stay with relatives, I’ll be safe unpaired till I die. WHAT I KNOW is that I THINK MY EX BEST FRIEND IS RIGHT TOO!! – THAT WE REALLY AREN’T MEANT TO BE HAPPY WITH EACH OTHER ON EARTH. We will only be hurting each other! What is ordinary to me is a no-no to him because he’s a jealous guy like John Lennon (Reference: Double Fantasy album – we both LOVE that masterpiece!! One of Daz’s male fans said Daz and Amy are the new John and Yoko. Really wow – thank you, sir, so much for the thoughtful comparison! How romantic that is- John and Yoko had done better than Romeo and Juliet / Samson and Delilah – even Disney Fairytale Pairs are way better than these two horrible “standard” pair-examples! lol) – so my ordinary interaction with male human beings carries meaning to a jealous guy like Daz. In other words, BY BEING MY DAY-TO-DAY SELF, I HURT HIM INADVERTENTLY/without meaning to. What’s does that mean? It means WE’RE INCOMPATIBLE from the get-go…our ESSENCES, OUR SOULS ARE INCOMPTIBLE. I NEVER WANT to hurt Daz. And yet I DO hurt him BY JUST BEING MY ORDINARY SELF (being a naturally friendly person). For his part, the same mechanics operate. He would appreciate it IF I GOT JEALOUS TOO to balance his periodic attacks or moments of inadequacy, WHENEVER HE HIMSELF GETS JEALOUS. Well, theoretically I could try to adjust about or compromise, but no more public humiliation because of unfounded jealousy. That’s THEORETICALLY. Because in reality, THINGS HAVE ALREADY BEEN SET IN MOTION IN 2012 (I meant – the wheels of unforgiving anger had started rolling, that year. I’m certain of it. It was triggered when sometime in 2012, I still didn’t show up and he decided not to wait anymore – albeit for very wrong/mistaken reasons). He cut our friendship ties on Earth in that year. I continue to love him from afar, and THIS LOVE WILL LIVE ON ENDLESSLY, INTO ETERNITY. There, we would be perfect for each other. The troubles that bothered us on Earth won’t be able to stop our union, and happiness in Heaven. AGAIN, I’m NOT saying I WILL OR WILL NOT LOVE AGAIN here on Earth. It depends on Destiny; it depends on what God wants.
DIFFERING PHILOSOPHIES OF FRIENDS: TO HIM, THIS FRIEND WHOM I SCOLDED FOR SMIRKING IN THE PAST – (AND OTHER FRIENDS OF MINE), I’LL EVENTUALLY FIND WHAT’S RIGHT (FRIENDS DO WISH THE BEST FOR US) BECAUSE THAT PARTICULAR GUY IS OBVIOUSLY THE WRONG ONE FOR ME. SOMETIMES WE NEED TO LISTEN TO THE WISDOM IN OUR FRIENDS, WHO CAN SEE THINGS MORE OBJECTIVELY, WITH TOTAL DETACHMENT FROM THAT SITUATION BOTHERING US. A REJECTING BEST FRIEND WHO GOES AGAINST HIS OWN FEELINGS OF LOVE FOR ME IS DEFINITELY SOMEONE I MUST NOT CARRY A TORCH FOR, OR THE DRAMA WILL BE ENDLESS! IMAGINE THAT… IT’S TIME TO STOP THIS NOW. NO MORE TEARS.
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